Disappointment in my life

Today i'm feel so sad.Suddenly my tears come out and feel pity for the accusation that is point to me. This is not fair and to much.Am I need change what I'm beeing now or they should change their behavior and act.I'm definitely tired of feeling beaten down and like I'm disappointing my boss and my colleague.But I'll be remind for my self...I've to strong to go through all of this and always be a positif thingking as well.
I've been disappointed in friends before, and have even more often disappointed my friends.I'll tell you what, though, friendship survives disappointment. I'll hang on to every friend who'll have me, because I know I'm a jerk, and I'll never be so rich that I can afford to lose a friend.Yeah, I'll get mad and not talk to people for awhile, and totally p*ss people off, but I always come around. I hope that people do the same for me.
We only have one life, and I want my life filled with friends; imperfect, irritating, exasperating, fun, loving, cant-live-without-them, would-give-my-life-for-them, friends.
I must give them time; I've had people block me before, but they've cooled off and we worked things out. If they don't want to continue the friendship, though, I wouldn't hold a grudge...heck, the people on here who have dropped me as a friend I don't hold a grudge against!

Well, what I can say is that this world is all about realism. People at the bottom of the pyramid always want to climb to the top. That’s the rule of the nature. Look at animals besides human beings, the tops always get to dominate the rest, be the first ones to eat prays, and kill any member who’s trying to take over their places. People do whatever that’s good for them and whatever that doesn’t benefit them. Work yourself out or at least protect yourself from being hurt or used by other people, you will get used it. Just think it as the nature rule, all life beings including human animals all do that, you will get through......